A Very Sad Day, A Huge Loss

It is with a heavy heart that I write this post. This morning my bestfriend called me and told me that her Dad had passed away. He was 54 years old and had a massive heart attack. I have cried all day, my cheeks sting and I don't think I can cry anymore. My heart goes out to my friend, his wife, his son, grandaughter and grandson. I picked up my bestfriends little neice from school today like I do most days. She was sad and wouldn't talk at first until I told her I knew what had happened. She asked me if I had a grandpa, I told her yes but he had died. She said 'then maybe your grandpa and my grandpa are together now.'

I love them all, I will miss him so. He was like a Dad to everyone.

I Should Pray For Them...Right?

This week has been a doozy. I know it is only Tuesday night but the week feels like it has gone on forever. Life has thrown every negative person at me that it possible can, at least that is what it feels like. I feel that I am letting them get to me. Those people are affecting my mood, how I treat others and my family. I know I shouldn't let them get to me but it is so hard not too. It is just very beyond my imagination how other people can be so mean, rude, and just flat out sarcastic to others.

I have always been a pessimist, I usually see the glass as half empty. Lately though I have been trying my hardest to work on that. I want to be more positive, I want to help my son be a positive person. It cannot be good for your health or heart to be stressed and worried by others. I cannot control how others act but I can control myself. Tonight I am going to pray for them that they somehow turn a leaf in their lives and become more positive people. I am also going to ask for strength for myself to become more positive.

Understand this is going to be very hard for me. When my 9 year old comes home completely bummed out about the Presidents Physical Fitness test and upset because he doesn't run as fast as others it is hard not to tell him, "Don't worry about it son. PE teachers are just people who couldn't get a real job so they teach PE. It doesn't take a genius to make people jump rope." Nope, instead I told him, "Just do your best, that's all you can do. Everyone is different and everyone is better at different things." I am hoping for the strength to keep saying those positive things.

Thank you.

Who is Jesus Mommy?

I have a friend, she is a friend in real life and on Facebook. Today she posted that her son asked her 'who is Jesus' and she didn't know how to answer him. I can honestly say I've been there.

While Nathaniel was christened as a baby and is a member of his Great Grandma's church my husband and I weren't always involved in that part of his life. I was very content to let his Great Grandma take him to church and give him that part of his raising. Several years ago though something struck a chord with my husband and I. Suddenly we realized that we should be involved in that part of his life as well. Nathaniel was so thrilled that his Dad and I started coming to church with him and his Great Grandma, we were thrilled too. It felt like it completed us as a family, the missing piece was finally there.

I have never considered myself a very 'spiritual' person. I am actually quite the cynic and tend to see the glass as half empty instead of half full. But when I had a family it became important to raise my son with faith. When I think back to my own growing up and going to services I remember most that I got morals out of going. Sure my mom taught me right from wrong but somehow going to services backed that up. It made me a better person and taught me the person I should be. ( I need to add here that I did not grow up going to church. When I say services it means I was raised in a form of Judaism, very much like the Jewish faith.)

I'm not generally one to preach at all but if you have a family or will soon have a family, I encourage you to look in your heart and find a faith to give your children. They will benefit from it their entire life.